《珍惜》
人人常說，珍惜你擁有的一切。
突然，腦袋，閃了一下，出現這樣的訊號：珍惜所有，也珍惜沒能擁有的事物。
我先在終於能夠跟自己妥協，珍惜現在一無是處的自己。擁有，失去或能擁有，不能擁有，其實是空虛，不實的。
有即是沒有，沒有即是有。
我擁有一無是處，一無是處也擁有了我。
流浪，沒了金錢來源，確有了時間，有了思考空間。
擁有了物質，失去了自性。反之，失去物質，自性顯現。
沒有物質體的存在，錢本身沒有價值，也因為物質體，錢才能有存在的可能。經濟學裡面，Supply and Demand是初級的課程裡面最先強調的概念。這應證了錢於物質的關係。物質體的需求越高，錢的價值越高。換言之，物質體需求下降，錢的價值跟著下。當物質體供不應求的情況下，再多的錢是沒有用的。
錢越多，物質需求越高，所以，古人的智慧，要把錢財給散掉，為真君子。
我到娑婆世界遊蕩的旅程，也許就是讓我認清楚物質慾望的真相。
因為一無是處的我，必需將物質慾望降低，這樣我才能有生存在這世間的可能。
佛家說到，無所欲，無所求，心才能平靜，平靜才能看到自性，然後才能產生智慧，爾後脫離生死苦海。
这些都是最近很想看的旅遊書籍。
最近、気に入る旅の本。
Books on Travel on my wishlist.
World
Asia
China
中國：自助遊（1）
中國：自助遊（2）
僕たちは世界を変えることができない。But, we wanna build a school in Cambodia
India
Behind the Beautiful Forevers: Life, death, and hope in a Mumbai undercity
有時覺得自己一無是處。這個不行，那個不行，超困っている。
でも、でも、この世の中に、自分がなにができること、ほんとにやりたいこと、きっとあるじゃないか。
やっと、自分はこの世に来た目的と価値、今更わかる！覚悟のはほんとにほんとに、長くかかったな。。。
死ぬ前、絶対人間や、ほかの生き物や、環境など宇宙までにもいいことをします。
You see, I am a vegan. I do not take any meat, seafood, not even egg(unless I have no choice at all).
So food is quite an issue to me when I am on the road, partly due to the language barrier, or sometimes vegan food is just non-existent in that particular region.
I am often given meat, when I said NO meat, just do without meat, and they will usually give me a nod and smile, to me, it means "OK, I know". But most time end up I got meat in my dish. Well, I don't mind, I just take time to pick the meat out from my dish and continue with the rest.
If I go with friends, I can give them the meat. If I'm alone, the meat become waste.
So now you have read here, you must think I am not a strict vegan. No, I am. This only happens when vegan food is not easily available or when I am out with a bunch of non-vegan people, I have to respect other people choice. On occasion like this, I will pick the vege out of meat; friends can have the meat, I can choose my vege. Win-Win. 
And so that I do not become a dumb vegan who everyone diislikes. And perhaps in this way, people are more willing to accept and understand veganism. We, vegan, are all about living a healthy lifestyle and respecting all living beings. *Cheers*
很多人寫Blog是為了表現自己。
我的blog呢，是我的遊記，公開的。
我寫給我自己的回憶，用我要用的語言方式紀錄我覺得值得紀錄的事跡。所以有看不懂的地方，請包涵原諒。
<28 FEB 2012 - Evening> Part Two - On the Train all night CNX to BKK
I took the 2nd class sleeper seat, where there are 4 berths (2 upper and 2 lower) in each compartment. I was in the berth #12.
There was a monk and a nun in our car #12, the monk was in the compartment next to mine, with the nun in the compartment next to the monk. For Monk and Nun, they cannot stay in the same compartment, only the people of the same gender can share the compartment.
The person-in-charge came round to check our ticket. The train left Chiang Mai station a bit later than the scheduled time. I thought I will have the whole compartment to myself. I sat happily beside the window, taking in the scenery along the railway, with my mind wandering elsewhere sometimes... (this bad habit I have yet to overcome, i shall guard my mind)
It's evening, the sun blazing right through the window... I can't see a thing without my sunglasses on.
Isolated bungalows, Some magnificent Wat on top of the Hills, Birds, Trees, Mountains, occasionally a few cows and monkeys passed me by...
A lady boarded at a few stops after Chiang Mai station, she was a Thai lady in her mid-30s I think, who shared the comparment with me on the lower berth opposite me, so now I am not alone in this compartment. We exchanged a glance and smiled. Soon after she settled herself on the berth, she made a call on her mobile, with little understanding of Thai Language, it sounded like she called a family member who just sent her off at the train station, and tell them everything's fine and they can go back home now...
On the train, a guy would come with a tray holding many glasses of orange juices on it. I shaked my head to indicate "No, thanks", he came not just one round, but many rounds... not many people would buy the drink. Along the many round he made, he would stop by to chit chat with me, asking if I am Thai, where am I from, why am I here alone... etc etc... very chichatty friendly Thai, a very cute chubby fella. He got very amused at my replying "Mai Ao Kha" during the few rounds he made, he repeated after me cheekily "Mai Ao Kha"... (male in Thai says Mai Ao Krap in formality) "Mai Ao Kha" means "DO NOT WANT", and I guess this is the only phrase I master well, and use most often during the whole stay in Thailand. 
Along the way, we passed by a very deep valley, the rail track is built right across the valley, the middle aged western guy at the next compartment was so excited, looking at me saying "very deep" while I was on the way back to my berth from the washroom, "Yeah, Valley" I replied coldly cos I was sleepy, and he also repeated after me "Yeah! Valley!" so loudly... I have seen railtrack built right along the cliff in New Zealand, so I didn't feel the excitement as he did. But nonetheless, it was spectacular.
The are a few Thai mens working on the train, some do ticket checking, some take care of your meals, some make your bed(yes, make bed, a thin mattress wrapped with white bedsheet and sanitized white knitted blanket will be provided). The guy who made our bed was smart looking and quiet, unlike the chubby fella who serves drink. I find that most Thai men are generally kind and gentle.
I also met a tour guide on the train, I've seen him somewhere before in Thailand, I told him. He asked me where I saw him, but I cannot remember. He was bringing a large group of westerner from Chiang Mai to BKK. He finds it surprising that a Malaysian girl like me traveling alone in Thailand. I think the backpacking culture has not make much impact amongst Malaysian yet. I met many Japanese backpackers during this trip, among all other Asians.
At about 6pm, my dinner was served. I was getting pretty sleepy and it was getting dark too. I don't lie down right after my meal, so I slept sitting with my legs crossed, like doing meditation. A curtain is provided to draw for privacy, but I didn't draw mine, and fall asleep. There was another Thai guy who worked on board, saw me sleeping in sitting postiion, came to ask if I am Ok and asked me lie down to sleep, so I explained to him, I'm full, I do not lie down after taking my meal, he insisted that I get some Eno (some drink to aid digestion), he wanted to give me, I insisted that I do not want... I find that I slept better sitting in lotus position than lying down on the train. hahaha
At about 9pm, I drew the curtain, with earphone on, lied down and tried to catch some good sleep. With many toss and turn all night, at about 6am I was awakened with 大悲咒 (Great Compassion Mantra) played by the monk who was in the next berth. Felt so bleesed. No announcement on the train, but it looks like I have reached Bangkok. With 1.30hour delayed, at 8:30am, we finally reached Hua Lamphong. All I want to do now is to get to the hostel and have a bath.
<28th FEB 2012> Part One - Still in Chiang Mai
Yay~ Finally... on a night train from ChiangMai to Bangkok.
(I had been wanting to experience taking train from Chiang Mai to southern area of Thailand and then back to Kuala Lumpur again.)
The train will not depart until 4:00pm. So as usual, GH/Hotel requires a morning/noon check-out, I checked-out 12pm sharp!
Knowing that I will have 4 hours until train departure, I need somewhere to go... I planned to the below the night before:
- Breakfast at the favourite cafe I patronise frequently - The Beetroot Stories @ Vieng Klang for 1.5 hours
- Massage at Lila Thai Massage for 1.5 hours
So after this 3 hours I will then leave Old Town CM to Train Station... Train in Thai Language is Roth Fai... Roth means car, and Fai means fire... sames as chinese, 火車。
Things did not really go as planned, I spent about slight more than an hour at the cafe, then left for message... cos it was quite boring there at the cafe, main reason, no wifi... I left after my breakfast and reading a few local magazines.
I walked to Lila Thai Massage, slowly... so as not to sweat as much, cos I wont be taking a bath this evening until I reach Bangkok the next morning... I walked as slow and as steady and careful not to sweat.... 
A few minutes later, I reached Lila Thai... It was unusually quiet, wasn't like the last few times I visited... there was not a single customers... At least I see no one at the time I go in.
Then as usual, they will try to introduce you package... as a backpacker, I just want a treat that doesn't burn a hole in my pocket, I asked for the cheapest 1 hour Thai Massage @ 180B. For this kind of price, you will have to share the whole massage area with other customers, but on that really quiet day, I had the whole place to myself... Nice & Cozy! & very private. Totally satisfied... 
One hour flew by... and it's still early to leave for Train Station... so satisfied, I asked for another hour of foot reflexology @ 180B. I did Foot Reflex before in Hatyai, like 10 years ago, my experience then was so bad, painful and tearful, that I vow not to have Foot Reflex ever... but dont know where comes the crazy thought and courage, I asked for one... And this time, the experience was totally different, it was not painful and in fact very relaxing and soothing... despite the masseur applying strength on those reflex points... I guess I have become very healthy since... 
After the Foot Reflex, I am still a little too early to leave for Train Station, so I sat inside the massage shop and went online for some quick updates... after about half an hour later, I'm finally leaving... I flag down an empty tuktuk, after bargaining with the drive down to 50B, off I go, no one on the way hop on...
I can do without food, but water is a must, knowing that things would be expensive on the train, I tried to get my water supply from the train station, fwah, out of my expectation, it is twice or 3 times as much as the water sold at regular 7-11. So expensive!
Next part I will continue with some interesting events that happened during the train ride. Khop Khun Kha... *Wai*
<27th FEB 2012>
忘了幾點起床，忘了幾點出門。。。
出門就往之前沒走過的方向前進，沒有目的地，走到哪兒，看到哪兒，再繼續走下去。。。
吖。。。走吖走。。。填飽肚子。。。走吖走到一家自行車店門口，有寫中文的甚麼Tour Service之類的，然後走進店裡，有一名像是老闆的人走過來。
樣子像華裔，就跟他用中文，誰知他都不懂中文的。。。然後就指我到店外面的一個小小的counter desk，那有以為可以講中文的。。。聽口音就知道是中國仔喇。。。
然後就問他清邁到曼谷火車票的事。在這之前，我要提一下，就是清邁很出名專服務華人的五佰先生的漢清邁。。。那裡有個會說中文的泰國美美。。。問她關於火車票的事，查都不查，很自信的跟我說，清邁曼谷火車票要很早訂的，起碼一個月前！嚇死我了，我真相信她。。。我當時还以為我得在清邁待一些時間或改搭巴士了。。。
然後接回之前自行車店前的Tour Service Desk，那裡的那個男生跟我說他查查看。。。一查，有嘛！每天都还有位吖。然後就請他幫我訂咯，途中跟他聊了下，從雲南（沒記錯的話）來的。。。幫忙訂票打電話到火車訂票部門，还請他的泰國同事幫忙，把我的英文名字，唸的亂七八糟，笑死他們自己。。。
就這樣訂了隔天28號的火車，下鋪的床位。。。
今晚是清邁的最後一晚咯。。。在舊城區內和附近亂逛很久很晚，大概回到GH已有11點咯。。。哇！走了一整天，還要爬4樓，一進GH就倒坐在GH樓下的椅子上。。。聽到DORM外还很熱鬧。。。
過了一會兒才上樓，整理洗刷。。。
洗刷完畢，还以為每個都睡了，誰知，那班日本人全不見了，只剩下一個，那個長得像中國仔的那個吧了。。。Backpack中能遇到自家的國人真好。。。
頭髮還沒干之際，就在Dorm外面上網看戲咯。。。不久那班日本仔回來了，禮貌上就跟他們一一say hi。。。誰知，有一個知道我從馬來來，一直跟我講Bahasa。。。大佬，我的日本語比Bahasa好。。。hahahha。。。他講的又是Indonesia的唩。一聊， 聊到3點，他buey tahan，之前下5杯啤酒的關係他說。還有，他才大我十幾天罷了，Backpack了一年多，我敬佩！
4點，我也去おやすみ了。。。回dorm黑漆漆，还撞到頭。頂！
＊在這家Dorm撞了兩次頭！夠Clumsy, Never been this clumsy. Totally Embarassing.
<26th FEB>
The very first trip I did in 2012. I called it a supposed-to-be there yet Not-supposed-to-be-there trip.
It doesnt matter anymore, supposedly to stay in ChiangMai for a month for some commitment, but the commitment did not become reality.
計畫永遠趕不上變化。 所以在這的情況下，去了一趟微妙之旅。漫無目的的從LCCT KUL飛到了ChiangMai,再漫無目的的走出幾場，到大馬路上，漫無目的攬到一輛雙條紅車（Song Taew），以30bath到了Old Town裡面。漫無目的亂亂走到一家不是預先想好要下榻的guesthouse － Chada Guesthouse. Thapae Gate走去，巷子里，8分鐘（蝸牛爬的速度，呵呵）
一切隨緣。。。 緣吹我去哪兒，我去哪兒。。。
到達當天，點名簿上，那天開始入住dorm的我是第三人。。。只看見有一個日本名。。。完全沒在意。。。
上到dorm... 很多人还在夢中。。。唯獨一人躺在床上看了我一下，你看我，我也就看你是誰吖。。。哦。。。中國仔。。。我想。。。哈哈哈。。。誰知道在dorm外面看見他，整個肢體語言很明顯的讓我知道。。。吖。。。是日本人。。。然後。。。我隔壁床躺的，又是日本妹。。。醬多日本人。。。誇張到。。。其實後來才發現，12長床的dorm，睡了5個日本人。。。。還有我一個亞洲人，其他紅皮膚的喇。談天當中，日本人又以為我是他們的人。。。有一種感覺。。。日本人背包的真多，其他亞洲人背包客呢？ 是因為淡季嗎？背包的在淡季背才好吧？ 不知道，反正，就這樣跟他們待了2晚。。。
到達當天是有名的Sunday Walking Street. 在GH睡到大概3點左右便出去走走了。。。
住宿Info：
Chada Guesthouse － 12 Bunk Bed Dorm： 100B/bed
Clean，2 common shower, 2 common toilet，2 common washbasin.
Common area outside Dorm。
https://www.facebook.com/groups/239710656274/
Unfavourable reviews from tripadavisor about this GH, but nothing unpleasant happened to me. What do you expect, 100B?
Next Travel Destination
Sep - Oct 2011 - Tokyo
